The Search for You
I searched for comfort and warmth from your quiet care,
Your steady hands taught me love is forever near.
That hush of silence was a promise always there,
A shelter from the wilderness of yesteryear
I knew that love will always build a happy home
I searched for worth from those outside the status quo
For signs that I belonged among the known and seen
I joined the masquerade and sought consent to grow
Hoping the choice would help escape from the routine
I’ve chased reflections of glory days never shown
I searched for you in passing eyes and elapsed dreams
A hope that leaned too hard on fate to feel complete.
I shaped my heart to fit the prayer or so it seems,
Expecting love to appear at every heartbeat
You were waiting there for me to find the whole time
I searched for strength to raise you with style and grace
To be the calm that steadied storms I couldn’t see.
But growing pains are there to keep us in our place
A quiet guide disguised as doubt inside of me.
Being there for you redefined my sense of time
I searched for me beneath the roles I learned to wear,
Stripping beliefs I carried long before I knew.
I faced the truths I’d buried out of quiet fear,
And felt the ground shift as old certainties withdrew.
I felt a pull that asked me only for myself
I searched for what remains when breath begins to fade
Not gates or flames, just something drawing me ahead.
I followed turns where former fears at last decayed,
And felt no need to name the fear I once had fed.
I moved with ease, becoming more than just myself.
